Once in a while, I look at myself and I'm just disgusted by how I've changed. How in the world did I end up like this? And why in the world did I not stop myself. I just don't understand how I can allow myself to change when I'm completely aware of it happening. I watch myself slowly becoming someone new and I do nothing about it. Until one day someone tells me how I used to be this, how I used to be that, and then I realise that I can never be the old me again. People change and that's normal. But what I dread the most in my case is that I've started to do the worst things without even knowing it. Day by day, it slowly gets worse and soon I think I'm just going to turn into a monster. I find myself thinking, feeling and doing things I shouldn't be, but why am I not stopping myself then? Maybe because I can't, but I think it's because I don't want to and I can't help it. I need to stop now but nothing's happening, nothing ever happens.
On a lighter note, I'm happy as hell we're talking again. I'm even more happy to know you're going to meet me. I'm thrilled. I can't wait to see you again so I can just talk to you. Is it bad that I'm having such high hopes? I know I just want to know you again. I really missed you.
Five things I want to say (to five different people):
- I'm really sorry for everything I've done, I will change.
- Can we talk soon again? Because I've missed you all along.
- Thank you so much for hearing me out, love you always.
- I hope you'll fly back soon so we can hang out together again.
- Thank you for loving and appreciating me for who I am.
4 comments:
Oi asshole, don't be sad. :D Love you and no matter how youve changed i'll be here for you ;] BTW AGAIN: YOU KNOW HOW LONG I TAKE JUST TO TAG THIS!! HAHA
That was Sing. :} Sorry dontknow why the f im called xoxo-.-
Thanks little one, I'm glad to know you're here for me. :)
HAHA YOU WANT TO BE GOSSIP GIRL THEN JUST SAY LA. Still fake what xoxo. :(
You're still beautiful like a rainbowww :) yey I love butterflies
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